-- Posted by Gruadia at 8:38 pm on July 10, 2009 but I just want to die... I'm not relapsing... I just am really stuck in the past... even 5 years ago was better than right now... I wish I could have lived in the 90s as an adult... -- Posted by DaisyMontana at 8:39 pm on July 10, 2009 Dont kill urself, its not the asnwer -- Posted by renegade riot at 8:40 pm on July 10, 2009 I do too. but you shouldnt think about wanting to die. its going to lead to deeper trouble -- Posted by Gruadia at 8:42 pm on July 10, 2009 I'm not going to die... for a while which is a sad fact.. but I'm not afraid of dying.. I kinda look forward to it. I'm not going to run off and go kill myself though -- Posted by ParkerJai at 8:44 pm on July 10, 2009 i don't wanna die... but sometimes i just wish i didn't exist -- Posted by Gruadia at 8:46 pm on July 10, 2009 Quote: from ParkerJai at 8:44 pm on July 10, 2009 i don't wanna die... but sometimes i just wish i didn't exist I kinda get that feeling... I remember doing something or saying something stupid and want to hit myself for saying it... or just wish i never existed so it wasn't bothered with... -- Posted by Fireiceair at 8:11 pm on July 11, 2009 Don't do it...I understand the living in the past thing, i do, but don't do it. Concentrate on happy things today and remember happy times from then. -- Posted by cutie2 at 8:32 pm on July 11, 2009 Quote: from Gruadia at 1:46 pm on July 11, 2009 Quote: from ParkerJai at 8:44 pm on July 10, 2009 i don't wanna die... but sometimes i just wish i didn't exist I kinda get that feeling... I remember doing something or saying something stupid and want to hit myself for saying it... or just wish i never existed so it wasn't bothered with... I know that feeling too. If I could have the choice not to ever have existed I think I would want to take it. It's a sad thing to think about. Life can be so much trouble. It makes me angry and upset to dwell on that though, because I do exist and I can't change that - I will have to get on with things as best I can, and so I try to make my existence a little bit worthwhile by encouraging other people and doing decent things. Some people we remember or have heard about (Mother Theresa, but also countless others) for the help and hope they brought to other people - they made life a little bit brighter, they made the world a better place in their own small way. The smallest kindness you do will still have an impact on someone's life and be worth doing. Why do you prefer the 90s to now, Gruadia? I sometimes wonder what it'd be like if I'd been born a few years earlier (or even many years earlier)... some things might be better but other things are worse. There are always problems, it's a human condition. I read books sometimes to escape from today's problems but if you become TOO lost in thinking of the past, you'll be miserable. You can think of those times occasionally for a bit of escapism but try not to get stuck there - it doesn't help. what do you dislike about now?