-- Posted by Anonymous at 2:53 pm on July 6, 2009 Despite tireless efforts, at the end of the day (or all day, depending) I just feel so... tired. Mentally. Like, I just don't have the energy to go out and be perky and happy and make friends because that's just not me. But the idea of me being a loner my whole life scares the shit out of me, aside from the fact that I just feel so lonely/left out/misunderstood whenever I do make concerted attempts to maintain a close friendship or whatnot. I am just a fucked up child. I just can't be happy. -- Posted by 80Kidz at 2:55 pm on July 6, 2009 how old are you. my guess is young enough to change things around. i've hit this 'wall' as well, and now i'm determined to save enough money to go road tripping and see what's really out there. -- Posted by GlassHearts at 2:56 pm on July 6, 2009 I know the feeling. but it is all down to thoughts, others can help you, but you have to help yourself first with their help. try and go to the doctors and ask for a counsellor, cognitive therapy is helpful for helping you to make you think in better ways and deal with things like this. -- Posted by grinzbie at 2:59 pm on July 6, 2009 I know the feeling but I have depression that I am now medicated for... -- Posted by Anonymous at 3:01 pm on July 6, 2009 Quote: from grinzbie at 2:59 pm on July 6, 2009 I know the feeling but I have depression that I am now medicated for... I've been to various psychologists over the past decade and no one diagnosed me with anything so I guess it's just my fault, a permanent facet of my personality that I need to learn to be happy with, which seems impossible because the way I am right now causes my family pain too, and gets me bullied all the time which can make things worse. My family all thinks that I am overdramatic and that I wish that something were wrong with me. Once I had a panic attack and then they accused me of copying something off of TV. The panic attack was brought on by me crying alone, just fine, and then my parents coming in and yelling at me for crying. I just feel trapped.