-- Posted by murphy mcbagel at 11:07 am on July 4, 2009 all i want is to relax. for the past 3 months now ive had no sleep, and nightmares every night (well almost) specially since i was borderline suicidal. In fact I'm stillso bothered that I wanted to kill myself I can hardly contain my guilt and hatred. No one has talked to me seriously about it, besides those who are PAID to.  Im trying to reach some actualization about it all. It feels weird mostly because i never came to terms with it. maybe you don't? Do you just never come to terms with that, or does it happen on its own? -- Posted by Miss Kaytee at 11:08 am on July 4, 2009 happens on it's own -- Posted by Zaxter at 11:08 am on July 4, 2009 If you want to talk I'm here for you. I understand how dreams are, they can really shake you up, feels almost real sometimes. -- Posted by GlassHearts at 11:09 am on July 4, 2009 i feel the same. -- Posted by murphy mcbagel at 11:10 am on July 4, 2009 i must be thinking too much.