-- Posted by RosabellaRai at 9:24 am on July 3, 2009 so.. im scared to let myself become anerexic. i dont want to hurt my family and friends.. i dont want to show them weakness... but lately i havent been eating normal.. the only thing i eat is dinner.. and i eat like 1/4 of it.. its like my stomach is hungry but my throat wont let me it. ive told my best friend about this.. and she just asked me why, i told her because of control.. i want to be in control of the pain my body has.. i used to cut and she said that she thinks this is just another way of harming myself to feel better.. im comfortable with my body.. i like it how it is.. its just i want to feel like im in control of the pain my body recieves.. its not up to everyone else.. sorry guys.. just had to get it off my chest. -- Posted by IronJew at 9:26 am on July 3, 2009 lots of people have been in ur position at one point or another if eating 1/4 of dinner isnt harming u then its ok -- Posted by lovergrl1 at 9:26 am on July 3, 2009 if you want to talk in privet just pm me -- Posted by Forgot My Name at 9:26 am on July 3, 2009 Force yourself to eat -- Posted by StraitjacketJunky at 9:28 am on July 3, 2009 Maybe you just need something to balance that pain. -- Posted by pclueless92 at 9:28 am on July 3, 2009 Yeah I know how you feel -- Posted by mbs55 at 9:30 am on July 3, 2009 Your friend might have a point, and like I've said so many times on here, self-harm is NEVER the answer. My question to you is how is everything at home? How are your relationships with your family members and friends? There has to be a reason as to why your body wants to do this. What's going on around you is probably what's causing your body to reject the food. Try spending more time with your family and friends; socialize more. Doing this will really help your self-esteem and you'll be able to go back to your regular eating habits. Also, simply force yourself to eat. You know what the consequences will be if you don't eat enough, so think of it as something that you absolutely have to do for survival. -- Posted by RosabellaRai at 9:32 am on July 3, 2009 Thank you everyone. -- Posted by PBScott at 9:40 am on July 3, 2009 I hope you find a way to make yourself better. -- Posted by w0w at 9:45 am on July 3, 2009 listen 2 ur friend xx -- Posted by Leah Louise at 2:37 am on July 4, 2009 Most of the times anorexia is triggered by a past event, sometimes that's because the person has given up self harming and still need something to feel there pain begin released. Starving... is very painful, i would say worse than self harming. If you don't get help from your parents or doctor now, you have a huge chance of developing deeper into anorexia nervosa, which from my own experience; is not a nice thing. You lose weight, but your perspective on thin becomes thinner, therefore you see yourself as fat. you could eat 0 calories in one day and lose 4lbs, and you would still think you 'could have done better' Trust me... Anorexia is horrible, you should go visit your doctor with your friend or parents and tell them how you can't eat and want help. Just don't leave it too late, do you really want to be fed fat through a tube?... It's not nice. Pm me whenever you want :) -Leah xx -- Posted by Leah Louise at 2:39 am on July 4, 2009 Quote: from Troop at 5:26 pm on July 3, 2009 lots of people have been in ur position at one point or another if eating 1/4 of dinner isnt harming u then its ok The average meal is 450 calories so a 1/2 is 225 and a 1/4 is 115? :/ 115 cals over 2000 ? not safe 1000 is starving