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-- Posted by Let It Snow at 1:41 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
I can't stop crying. I can't stand it here.
I fucking hate this place and everyone here. But there's nothing I can do about it.
I probably broke the phone, I threw it at the wall.
She was with him again. Because her drugs and fucking sex mean more to her than I do.
I don't want to be here anymore. Right now, I'd rather be dead than life the life I do.
I'm so miserable...
There's nothing anyone can do.. I just want to leave.. I hate this so much.. Goddamn it.
-- Posted by NightChick666 at 1:42 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
mother being a whore?
-- Posted by Uhhello at 1:43 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
? Forget about her and go do your own thing.
Friends/mothers look out FOR EACH OTHER...its not one way. I have a mate who is the same but tbh, it doesnt bother me.
And my dad was the same.
Oh well.
-- Posted by ibanez at 1:43 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
well find something other to live for. when you do, never let anything get too it. it'll be your inspiration to live.
-- Posted by snowcone200 at 1:44 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Is this your mom or gf? I been that way feeling like they didnt care.
-- Posted by SpasticTurnip at 1:44 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
things get worse before they get better dear x
-- Posted by Gerard Cullin at 1:45 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from ibanez at 1:43 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
 well find something other to live for. when you do, never let anything get too it. it'll be your inspiration to live. 
Yep. this is true. I got dumped for my ex's ex. Yeah. AND THAT'S CAUSE I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I HAD GOTTEN DUMPED!
-- Posted by RubberTrees at 1:45 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Just try to calm down now. Don't do anything that you'll eventually regret later. Try distracting yourself with games or drawing or something so that you'll feel better.
-- Posted by Uhhello at 1:45 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from SpasticTurnip at 1:44 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
things get worse before they get better dear x
Of they just get worse and worse and worse...
Until YOU do something about it. (was being general here, wasn't aiming this at the person i quoted)
-- Posted by Let It Snow at 1:47 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from snowcone200 at 4:44 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Is this your mom or gf? I been that way feeling like they didnt care.
My mom. But she said he was gone for good. He ruined my life.. Yet she doesn't care.
-- Posted by puppie11 at 1:59 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 1:47 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from snowcone200 at 4:44 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Is this your mom or gf? I been that way feeling like they didnt care.
My mom. But she said he was gone for good. He ruined my life.. Yet she doesn't care.
who is ruining your life?
-- Posted by The Wolfhound at 2:01 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Cheer up. Only a permanent and deadly disease can "ruin your life" when you're a teen, though a lot of things seem like they do. Relax, it'll pass... "Everything ends eventually. And so does that."
-- Posted by starla91 at 2:04 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
it's not that your mother doesn't care. Parents, and people, they do things selfishly sometimes. She might not fully understand how much this is hurting you. And drugs just really fuck people up. when my parents were into that crap it just affected them so negatively. You're mother's in the wrong no doubt, but things will get better. as formentioned, don't do anything harsh.What you're feeling right now is passionate and acute, let yourself cool down and see how you feel about things then. Go for a walk. Put on your mp3 and go for a long walk. or go over to a friend's. just get out of there and out of your head for a little while, until the wound isn't so new :/
-- Posted by Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from puppie11 at 4:59 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 1:47 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from snowcone200 at 4:44 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Is this your mom or gf? I been that way feeling like they didnt care.
My mom. But she said he was gone for good. He ruined my life.. Yet she doesn't care.
who is ruining your life?
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
-- Posted by Uhhello at 4:09 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from The Wolfhound at 2:01 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Cheer up. Only a permanent and deadly disease can "ruin your life" when you're a teen, though a lot of things seem like they do. Relax, it'll pass... "Everything ends eventually. And so does that."
Being raped can pretty much ruin your life.
Taking drugs can ruin your life.
Killing someone will ruin your life. And to topic author:
Stop depending on other people and start depending on yourself...These people treat you like crap and its about time you made THEM do the work.
And if they don't?
Oh well.
Fuck everyone else, do good in your studies good a good job then you can turn around and laugh at them...because YOU succeeded on your own.
And please stop with the self pity...it won't do you any good...get up and take action, do something about it! Not for anyone else but for YOU...People won't change until they realise they have to, and sorry but it doesnt sound like their going to change any time soon. I lived through refuges, 4 in about 2 months because my dad kept finding us...The bullying there is horrendous but oh well. I went though the continuous family deaths and suicides and continous drug abuse, personal abuse, visiting mental hospitals, always being told by them i would end up just like my dad, i would never amount to anything worth while...If i can stick all that and still manage to get to university. So can you!
And it doesn't have to be university.
It can be anything.
Get your focus to start making changes to your life, ignore the other fucktards, and do yourself proud.
-- Posted by S0LITUDE at 5:25 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
The thing is that you shouldn't let anyone invade your life because after all it is your life and no one else's. That is the one thing we have and to have it "invaded" by someone else would be a waste. Is he like your step-father? What exactly do you hate about him? Don't be sad because your mom has got a boyfriend or married someone else. Sometimes you have to learn to look from the other person's perspective. Think about how your mom would feel if she didn't have anyone she could love and that could love her. Think about her too not just about yourself. Everyone needs some love and after all it is her life as well. You see, you can't go around telling your mom what to do with her life and what to not do, especially if it involves love. Sometimes we don't understand things like this until years later when we become a bit more dependent. It should not bother you that she likes someone. Everyone needs a second chance. Perhaps this makes her happy. You should tell her, that just like she has her life, you also have yours and if you don't want to share your life with "that man" then you should not have to, but you can't stop your mom from seeing him. I know it's hard! But you need to learn to find your own happiness. Try meeting other people and starting to have a more social life with others beside your family. Try to find love in some others if this is not working for you. I know that it is essential for us to have our parents' affection and I'm sure you have hers although you might not accept it. You might be depressed but you just have to learn to get used to that fact that your mom also needs someone else. Do it for her. Perhaps you can do nothing about it, but that does not mean you have to be sad. You also mention that you want to leave. You can use this as a way to motivate you. If you really want to leave that place then you must start now and try to be independent. School is essential if you hope to achieve this, but please don't feel miserable. I tell you, you just have to get used to it. Try to enjoy it. Eventually it will get better after you start understanding that it isn't that bad.
-- Posted by Let It Snow at 5:07 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from S0LITUDE at 8:25 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
The thing is that you shouldn't let anyone invade your life because after all it is your life and no one else's. That is the one thing we have and to have it "invaded" by someone else would be a waste. Is he like your step-father? What exactly do you hate about him? Don't be sad because your mom has got a boyfriend or married someone else. Sometimes you have to learn to look from the other person's perspective. Think about how your mom would feel if she didn't have anyone she could love and that could love her. Think about her too not just about yourself. Everyone needs some love and after all it is her life as well. You see, you can't go around telling your mom what to do with her life and what to not do, especially if it involves love. Sometimes we don't understand things like this until years later when we become a bit more dependent. It should not bother you that she likes someone. Everyone needs a second chance. Perhaps this makes her happy. You should tell her, that just like she has her life, you also have yours and if you don't want to share your life with "that man" then you should not have to, but you can't stop your mom from seeing him. I know it's hard! But you need to learn to find your own happiness. Try meeting other people and starting to have a more social life with others beside your family. Try to find love in some others if this is not working for you. I know that it is essential for us to have our parents' affection and I'm sure you have hers although you might not accept it. You might be depressed but you just have to learn to get used to that fact that your mom also needs someone else. Do it for her. Perhaps you can do nothing about it, but that does not mean you have to be sad. You also mention that you want to leave. You can use this as a way to motivate you. If you really want to leave that place then you must start now and try to be independent. School is essential if you hope to achieve this, but please don't feel miserable. I tell you, you just have to get used to it. Try to enjoy it. Eventually it will get better after you start understanding that it isn't that bad.
This man is nothing. He's not a step-dad or boyfriend. He is as I put it, a stalker. My mother started out to be friends with him. Only reasons? For sex and drugs. This man has no life, he has no job. He moved into our home without being asked to. Then, he refused to leave. He finally did. He would call, literally, 50+ times a day. My mom didn't want to answer. My mom didn't like him besides those two things. He broke into our house while my mother was here. He threatened her. Cops were called, he was forced to leave. Not to mention he's stolen $500 worth of her jewelry. What'd she do? She didn't press charges, she didn't do a damn thing. He still threatens her. She's a fucking lost cause. She won't listen to anyone. Not even to her own mother who is dying. Or her brother or sister, not even me, my sister, or my brother. Not to mention there's a protection order out on me and my sister (where my parents separated and both were tested positive for drugs). So if she gets caught with a positive drug test, we are both gone. And honestly, she wouldn't give a shit. Thus is why I should most likely be moving in my brother in a few months.
-- Posted by Uhhello at 10:18 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 5:07 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from S0LITUDE at 8:25 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
The thing is that you shouldn't let anyone invade your life because after all it is your life and no one else's. That is the one thing we have and to have it "invaded" by someone else would be a waste. Is he like your step-father? What exactly do you hate about him? Don't be sad because your mom has got a boyfriend or married someone else. Sometimes you have to learn to look from the other person's perspective. Think about how your mom would feel if she didn't have anyone she could love and that could love her. Think about her too not just about yourself. Everyone needs some love and after all it is her life as well. You see, you can't go around telling your mom what to do with her life and what to not do, especially if it involves love. Sometimes we don't understand things like this until years later when we become a bit more dependent. It should not bother you that she likes someone. Everyone needs a second chance. Perhaps this makes her happy. You should tell her, that just like she has her life, you also have yours and if you don't want to share your life with "that man" then you should not have to, but you can't stop your mom from seeing him. I know it's hard! But you need to learn to find your own happiness. Try meeting other people and starting to have a more social life with others beside your family. Try to find love in some others if this is not working for you. I know that it is essential for us to have our parents' affection and I'm sure you have hers although you might not accept it. You might be depressed but you just have to learn to get used to that fact that your mom also needs someone else. Do it for her. Perhaps you can do nothing about it, but that does not mean you have to be sad. You also mention that you want to leave. You can use this as a way to motivate you. If you really want to leave that place then you must start now and try to be independent. School is essential if you hope to achieve this, but please don't feel miserable. I tell you, you just have to get used to it. Try to enjoy it. Eventually it will get better after you start understanding that it isn't that bad.
This man is nothing. He's not a step-dad or boyfriend. He is as I put it, a stalker. My mother started out to be friends with him. Only reasons? For sex and drugs. This man has no life, he has no job. He moved into our home without being asked to. Then, he refused to leave. He finally did. He would call, literally, 50+ times a day. My mom didn't want to answer. My mom didn't like him besides those two things. He broke into our house while my mother was here. He threatened her. Cops were called, he was forced to leave. Not to mention he's stolen $500 worth of her jewelry. What'd she do? She didn't press charges, she didn't do a damn thing. He still threatens her. She's a fucking lost cause. She won't listen to anyone. Not even to her own mother who is dying. Or her brother or sister, not even me, my sister, or my brother. Not to mention there's a protection order out on me and my sister (where my parents separated and both were tested positive for drugs). So if she gets caught with a positive drug test, we are both gone. And honestly, she wouldn't give a shit. Thus is why I should most likely be moving in my brother in a few months.
Well 'You'll both be gone'...it'll probably be the best thing for both of you.
Drug addicts never realise anything until its too late..occasional they do and you leaving could be a wakeup call to your mum not to take u for granted.
-- Posted by Let It Snow at 11:47 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Uhhello at 1:18 pm on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 5:07 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from S0LITUDE at 8:25 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
The thing is that you shouldn't let anyone invade your life because after all it is your life and no one else's. That is the one thing we have and to have it "invaded" by someone else would be a waste. Is he like your step-father? What exactly do you hate about him? Don't be sad because your mom has got a boyfriend or married someone else. Sometimes you have to learn to look from the other person's perspective. Think about how your mom would feel if she didn't have anyone she could love and that could love her. Think about her too not just about yourself. Everyone needs some love and after all it is her life as well. You see, you can't go around telling your mom what to do with her life and what to not do, especially if it involves love. Sometimes we don't understand things like this until years later when we become a bit more dependent. It should not bother you that she likes someone. Everyone needs a second chance. Perhaps this makes her happy. You should tell her, that just like she has her life, you also have yours and if you don't want to share your life with "that man" then you should not have to, but you can't stop your mom from seeing him. I know it's hard! But you need to learn to find your own happiness. Try meeting other people and starting to have a more social life with others beside your family. Try to find love in some others if this is not working for you. I know that it is essential for us to have our parents' affection and I'm sure you have hers although you might not accept it. You might be depressed but you just have to learn to get used to that fact that your mom also needs someone else. Do it for her. Perhaps you can do nothing about it, but that does not mean you have to be sad. You also mention that you want to leave. You can use this as a way to motivate you. If you really want to leave that place then you must start now and try to be independent. School is essential if you hope to achieve this, but please don't feel miserable. I tell you, you just have to get used to it. Try to enjoy it. Eventually it will get better after you start understanding that it isn't that bad.
This man is nothing. He's not a step-dad or boyfriend. He is as I put it, a stalker. My mother started out to be friends with him. Only reasons? For sex and drugs. This man has no life, he has no job. He moved into our home without being asked to. Then, he refused to leave. He finally did. He would call, literally, 50+ times a day. My mom didn't want to answer. My mom didn't like him besides those two things. He broke into our house while my mother was here. He threatened her. Cops were called, he was forced to leave. Not to mention he's stolen $500 worth of her jewelry. What'd she do? She didn't press charges, she didn't do a damn thing. He still threatens her. She's a fucking lost cause. She won't listen to anyone. Not even to her own mother who is dying. Or her brother or sister, not even me, my sister, or my brother. Not to mention there's a protection order out on me and my sister (where my parents separated and both were tested positive for drugs). So if she gets caught with a positive drug test, we are both gone. And honestly, she wouldn't give a shit. Thus is why I should most likely be moving in my brother in a few months.
Well 'You'll both be gone'...it'll probably be the best thing for both of you.
Drug addicts never realise anything until its too late..occasional they do and you leaving could be a wakeup call to your mum not to take u for granted.
Honestly, no it wouldn't. It's not like I'd be near here, and me and my sister would most likely be separated.
-- Posted by Uhhello at 12:38 pm on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 11:47 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Uhhello at 1:18 pm on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 5:07 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from S0LITUDE at 8:25 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
The thing is that you shouldn't let anyone invade your life because after all it is your life and no one else's. That is the one thing we have and to have it "invaded" by someone else would be a waste. Is he like your step-father? What exactly do you hate about him? Don't be sad because your mom has got a boyfriend or married someone else. Sometimes you have to learn to look from the other person's perspective. Think about how your mom would feel if she didn't have anyone she could love and that could love her. Think about her too not just about yourself. Everyone needs some love and after all it is her life as well. You see, you can't go around telling your mom what to do with her life and what to not do, especially if it involves love. Sometimes we don't understand things like this until years later when we become a bit more dependent. It should not bother you that she likes someone. Everyone needs a second chance. Perhaps this makes her happy. You should tell her, that just like she has her life, you also have yours and if you don't want to share your life with "that man" then you should not have to, but you can't stop your mom from seeing him. I know it's hard! But you need to learn to find your own happiness. Try meeting other people and starting to have a more social life with others beside your family. Try to find love in some others if this is not working for you. I know that it is essential for us to have our parents' affection and I'm sure you have hers although you might not accept it. You might be depressed but you just have to learn to get used to that fact that your mom also needs someone else. Do it for her. Perhaps you can do nothing about it, but that does not mean you have to be sad. You also mention that you want to leave. You can use this as a way to motivate you. If you really want to leave that place then you must start now and try to be independent. School is essential if you hope to achieve this, but please don't feel miserable. I tell you, you just have to get used to it. Try to enjoy it. Eventually it will get better after you start understanding that it isn't that bad.
This man is nothing. He's not a step-dad or boyfriend. He is as I put it, a stalker. My mother started out to be friends with him. Only reasons? For sex and drugs. This man has no life, he has no job. He moved into our home without being asked to. Then, he refused to leave. He finally did. He would call, literally, 50+ times a day. My mom didn't want to answer. My mom didn't like him besides those two things. He broke into our house while my mother was here. He threatened her. Cops were called, he was forced to leave. Not to mention he's stolen $500 worth of her jewelry. What'd she do? She didn't press charges, she didn't do a damn thing. He still threatens her. She's a fucking lost cause. She won't listen to anyone. Not even to her own mother who is dying. Or her brother or sister, not even me, my sister, or my brother. Not to mention there's a protection order out on me and my sister (where my parents separated and both were tested positive for drugs). So if she gets caught with a positive drug test, we are both gone. And honestly, she wouldn't give a shit. Thus is why I should most likely be moving in my brother in a few months.
Well 'You'll both be gone'...it'll probably be the best thing for both of you.
Drug addicts never realise anything until its too late..occasional they do and you leaving could be a wakeup call to your mum not to take u for granted.
Honestly, no it wouldn't. It's not like I'd be near here, and me and my sister would most likely be separated.
Well you can always speak to someone about trying to have you not separated...and besides if its that bad, wouldnt it be nice to be away from everyone? Start living a peaceful life,
-- Posted by Let It Snow at 8:55 am on Jan. 10, 2009
Quote: from Uhhello at 3:38 pm on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 11:47 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Uhhello at 1:18 pm on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 5:07 am on Jan. 8, 2009
Quote: from S0LITUDE at 8:25 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
The thing is that you shouldn't let anyone invade your life because after all it is your life and no one else's. That is the one thing we have and to have it "invaded" by someone else would be a waste. Is he like your step-father? What exactly do you hate about him? Don't be sad because your mom has got a boyfriend or married someone else. Sometimes you have to learn to look from the other person's perspective. Think about how your mom would feel if she didn't have anyone she could love and that could love her. Think about her too not just about yourself. Everyone needs some love and after all it is her life as well. You see, you can't go around telling your mom what to do with her life and what to not do, especially if it involves love. Sometimes we don't understand things like this until years later when we become a bit more dependent. It should not bother you that she likes someone. Everyone needs a second chance. Perhaps this makes her happy. You should tell her, that just like she has her life, you also have yours and if you don't want to share your life with "that man" then you should not have to, but you can't stop your mom from seeing him. I know it's hard! But you need to learn to find your own happiness. Try meeting other people and starting to have a more social life with others beside your family. Try to find love in some others if this is not working for you. I know that it is essential for us to have our parents' affection and I'm sure you have hers although you might not accept it. You might be depressed but you just have to learn to get used to that fact that your mom also needs someone else. Do it for her. Perhaps you can do nothing about it, but that does not mean you have to be sad. You also mention that you want to leave. You can use this as a way to motivate you. If you really want to leave that place then you must start now and try to be independent. School is essential if you hope to achieve this, but please don't feel miserable. I tell you, you just have to get used to it. Try to enjoy it. Eventually it will get better after you start understanding that it isn't that bad.
This man is nothing. He's not a step-dad or boyfriend. He is as I put it, a stalker. My mother started out to be friends with him. Only reasons? For sex and drugs. This man has no life, he has no job. He moved into our home without being asked to. Then, he refused to leave. He finally did. He would call, literally, 50+ times a day. My mom didn't want to answer. My mom didn't like him besides those two things. He broke into our house while my mother was here. He threatened her. Cops were called, he was forced to leave. Not to mention he's stolen $500 worth of her jewelry. What'd she do? She didn't press charges, she didn't do a damn thing. He still threatens her. She's a fucking lost cause. She won't listen to anyone. Not even to her own mother who is dying. Or her brother or sister, not even me, my sister, or my brother. Not to mention there's a protection order out on me and my sister (where my parents separated and both were tested positive for drugs). So if she gets caught with a positive drug test, we are both gone. And honestly, she wouldn't give a shit. Thus is why I should most likely be moving in my brother in a few months.
Well 'You'll both be gone'...it'll probably be the best thing for both of you.
Drug addicts never realise anything until its too late..occasional they do and you leaving could be a wakeup call to your mum not to take u for granted.
Honestly, no it wouldn't. It's not like I'd be near here, and me and my sister would most likely be separated.
Well you can always speak to someone about trying to have you not separated...and besides if its that bad, wouldnt it be nice to be away from everyone? Start living a peaceful life,
A peaceful life? You mean a new one. One were I'd be living with complete strangers, and I'd no longer be near any of my friends? Sure, that sounds just peachy.. I'm not good with strangers, I'm not good at being in awkward places as in a new home. I don't talk around new people, and I'd rather not start. Right now, I'd prefer to wait till I can move in with my brother.
-- Posted by Uhhello at 11:39 am on Jan. 10, 2009
Yes. A new and peaceful life with people who are dedicated in looking after children and will have lots of time for you. I thought you said you don't get on with your friends anyway?(or am i thinking of another topic i read? (sorry if i am)) And no one does well when they first go to a new home? You think they go to a new home and everyones all friendly chatting like they've known enough other for years? Hell no. But staying with your brother sounds a good idea.
-- Posted by puppie11 at 11:13 pm on Jan. 16, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 2:11 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from puppie11 at 4:59 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from Let It Snow at 1:47 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Quote: from snowcone200 at 4:44 pm on Jan. 7, 2009
Is this your mom or gf? I been that way feeling like they didnt care.
My mom. But she said he was gone for good. He ruined my life.. Yet she doesn't care.
who is ruining your life?
This guy that basically invaded our lives.. As I call him, my mom's stalker.
your dad? sorry im confused. message me if u wanna talk :)
-- Posted by xxpsychoxx285xx at 6:58 am on Jan. 17, 2009
this definitely sounds like a tough situation, and a painful one at that. at this point i'd say that the best thing you can do right now is just take care of yourself. it's easier said than done, but don't worry about what those other two are doing. it sucks when everything feels like it's falling apart and you have other people that are supposed to be helping..instead seemingly ripping your face off or just ignoring you. just take it one day at a time. it's going to be painful, and it's not going to be easy but i think you can do it. maybe you can find someone to talk to when you're having a hard time. or try keeping a journal to at least get some of the feelings out. if you have other questions, or just want to talk, message me. stay strong, you have it in you!
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