Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic I just find myself disgusting, and life exhausting. Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from Anonymous at 2:53 pm on July 6, 2009[quote]Despite tireless efforts, at the end of the day (or all day, depending) I just feel so... tired. Mentally. Like, I just don't have the energy to go out and be perky and happy and make friends because that's just not me. But the idea of me being a loner my whole life scares the shit out of me, aside from the fact that I just feel so lonely/left out/misunderstood whenever I do make concerted attempts to maintain a close friendship or whatnot. I am just a fucked up child. I just can't be happy.[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 2:53 pm on July 6, 2009 Despite tireless efforts, at the end of the day (or all day, depending) I just feel so... tired. Mentally. Like, I just don't have the energy to go out and be perky and happy and make friends because that's just not me. But the idea of me being a loner my whole life scares the shit out of me, aside from the fact that I just feel so lonely/left out/misunderstood whenever I do make concerted attempts to maintain a close friendship or whatnot. I am just a fucked up child. I just can't be happy.

Replies Anonymous Posted at 3:01 pm on July 6, 2009 Quote: from grinzbie at 2:59 pm on July 6, 2009 I know the feeling but I have depression that I am now medicated for... I've been to various psychologists over the past decade and no one diagnosed me with anything so I guess it's just my fault, a permanent facet of my personality that I need to learn to be happy with, which seems impossible because the way I am right now causes my family pain too, and gets me bullied all the time which can make things worse. My family all thinks that I am overdramatic and that I wish that something were wrong with me. Once I had a panic attack and then they accused me of copying something off of TV. The panic attack was brought on by me crying alone, just fine, and then my parents coming in and yelling at me for crying. I just feel trapped. grinzbie Posted at 2:59 pm on July 6, 2009 I know the feeling but I have depression that I am now medicated for... GlassHearts Posted at 2:56 pm on July 6, 2009 I know the feeling. but it is all down to thoughts, others can help you, but you have to help yourself first with their help. try and go to the doctors and ask for a counsellor, cognitive therapy is helpful for helping you to make you think in better ways and deal with things like this. 80Kidz Posted at 2:55 pm on July 6, 2009 how old are you. my guess is young enough to change things around. i've hit this 'wall' as well, and now i'm determined to save enough money to go road tripping and see what's really out there. All 4 previous replies displayed.