Quoting Post Topic In this preverse way Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]Worst Mod Ever[/m] at 7:14 pm on July 11, 2009[quote]Your statement begs the question, why are you "happy" when you are depressed? Clearly, you haven't stated that you enjoy getting some form of attention, so I'm not accusing you of that. After thinking about it for a bit, my question is this; are you asking for help or are you stating fact? Since this is a support forum, I'll assume that's what you're asking for, but if you aren't please don't take offense. I can't pretend to understand completely what you are going through, but I think I can sympathize with you to some degree (maybe even empathize). I'm a nihilistic hedonist myself, and that's a conclusion I've come to from a few years of what I think were undiagnosed depression. I used to be unable to to find happiness in anything but my own misery. I didn't express it the way most teens going through that did. I became an introvert who lived inside his own mind and didn't really come in contact with reality much. But that's not really very satisfying. Living in your own world doesn't do much after a while, and I realized my wallowing was running from what I was afraid of. I confronted the existential issues I faced, the fallacies of my political ideologies, and began to overcome the massive social anxiety I faced. I know this isn't exactly what you're talking about, but I want you to know that there are people who have come through what you're going through. You can make it through and you can be happy. Hope that helps somewhat.[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post Anonymous Posted at 9:50 pm on July 10, 2009 I am happiest when I am depressed.  I mean to say that I am most content whilst in a state of hopelessness.  Everyday I see how great I could be.  And everyday I see how mediocre I am.  I am always on the edge of throwing myself into a bad mood even on good days.  Maybe you do not care.  Maybe you have no words to say to me.  Maybe I have no purpose to live.

Replies Worst Mod Ever Posted at 7:14 pm on July 11, 2009 Your statement begs the question, why are you "happy" when you are depressed? Clearly, you haven't stated that you enjoy getting some form of attention, so I'm not accusing you of that. After thinking about it for a bit, my question is this; are you asking for help or are you stating fact? Since this is a support forum, I'll assume that's what you're asking for, but if you aren't please don't take offense. I can't pretend to understand completely what you are going through, but I think I can sympathize with you to some degree (maybe even empathize). I'm a nihilistic hedonist myself, and that's a conclusion I've come to from a few years of what I think were undiagnosed depression. I used to be unable to to find happiness in anything but my own misery. I didn't express it the way most teens going through that did. I became an introvert who lived inside his own mind and didn't really come in contact with reality much. But that's not really very satisfying. Living in your own world doesn't do much after a while, and I realized my wallowing was running from what I was afraid of. I confronted the existential issues I faced, the fallacies of my political ideologies, and began to overcome the massive social anxiety I faced. I know this isn't exactly what you're talking about, but I want you to know that there are people who have come through what you're going through. You can make it through and you can be happy. Hope that helps somewhat. kattt Posted at 9:52 pm on July 10, 2009 maybes arnt for sure . Lally Posted at 9:51 pm on July 10, 2009 What a confusing mood. brittnutz Posted at 9:51 pm on July 10, 2009 huh ? All 4 previous replies displayed.