Quoting Post Archived Topic: It will not be bumped to the top of the forum. Topic Self harm Membername   Not a member? Sign Up Free (takes 20 seconds) Password   Forgotten your password? Post Font: Verdana Arial Black Georgia Comic Sans Impact   Size: Tiny Normal Big Huge   Color: Default Dark Red Red Orange Brown Green Olive Cyan Blue Dark Blue Indigo Black [ Check Spelling ] [ Post Preview ] [ LiveTags ] Quote: from [m]RayOrama[/m] at 12:11 pm on July 5, 2009[quote]I've read topics here about cutting. I know people in real life who do it too. Cutting, burning, and other stuff. I have to admit that I don't understand this. At all. My life is not perfect. I'm short, overweight, not really attractive to most girls, have parents who think I'm either drug addicted, crazy, or gay. I don't get high, drunk, steal, or bully others. I get angry and depressed way too much. I break things and scream at people when my anxiety takes over. I hate my life and everybody in it sometimes. Even though this is true I can honestly say that I have never once thought about harming or killing myself. I mean not ever. There are things I want to do and I think to myself that everybody around me is wrong and they just can't see what I'm about. They are the ones who have the problem. I like myself and how I think. Why would I want to harm the person that understands me the best? Me! I may not be perfect but I'm the only me there is and I want to keep myself intact. I guess it would be hard for anybody to explain why they hurt themselves. People have told me that it's a way to dull the emotional pain by focusing on physical pain instead. I don't get that. My emotional pain and anger make me feel very alive. I don't want to dull them. I guess what I'm trying to say is, please take care of yourself because you're the only one who can do it. Now you can call me lame or whatever you want but I said what I was thinking.[/quote] FAQ Keyword Search: Post Options Favorites Manager Notify me of new replies to this topic by email Notify me of new replies to this topic by private message Original Post RayOrama Posted at 12:11 pm on July 5, 2009 I've read topics here about cutting. I know people in real life who do it too. Cutting, burning, and other stuff. I have to admit that I don't understand this. At all. My life is not perfect. I'm short, overweight, not really attractive to most girls, have parents who think I'm either drug addicted, crazy, or gay. I don't get high, drunk, steal, or bully others. I get angry and depressed way too much. I break things and scream at people when my anxiety takes over. I hate my life and everybody in it sometimes. Even though this is true I can honestly say that I have never once thought about harming or killing myself. I mean not ever. There are things I want to do and I think to myself that everybody around me is wrong and they just can't see what I'm about. They are the ones who have the problem. I like myself and how I think. Why would I want to harm the person that understands me the best? Me! I may not be perfect but I'm the only me there is and I want to keep myself intact. I guess it would be hard for anybody to explain why they hurt themselves. People have told me that it's a way to dull the emotional pain by focusing on physical pain instead. I don't get that. My emotional pain and anger make me feel very alive. I don't want to dull them. I guess what I'm trying to say is, please take care of yourself because you're the only one who can do it. Now you can call me lame or whatever you want but I said what I was thinking.

Replies Fireiceair Posted at 9:02 am on July 11, 2009 yes you are Fireiceair Posted at 9:02 am on July 11, 2009 I've cut and other things. I honestly shouldn't even be here. I understand what you're saying, but cutting and other things aren't rational. I think now "Why did i do that?" but for me, it either proved I was still living b/c I was so dull to pain or I felt I deserved to hurt b/c I felt I was the cause of a lot of pain. The guilt is not rational...I've done nothing wrong, I don't deserve to hurt or die. I still struggle w/ cutting and other thoughts daily. Life is a struggle that I'm scared I won't win. I'm not saying yur wrong and I'm right. I'm trying 2 explain why someone may do that. PS: Thanx 4 not saying anyone who cuts or other things only wants attention. Then I'd have to scream at you. If someone hurts themselves that badly or attempts to end things permanently, how could that be for attention. I've seen pictures and my friends. They don't do it for attention. Just Waiting Here Posted at 12:18 pm on July 5, 2009 It's hard to understand if you don't experience it.  But let's say this... you say you break things and scream at people?  I've never broken anything and I think only twice in my life have I ever raised my voice when pushed too far (and that is only a 3 second thing).  That's not my way of coping... you have your own. You also have to consider that those that do cut often feel compelled to do so.  These people aren't logically considering what they 'should' do or how they 'should' respond.  Of course, everything is different.  I cut because it took away the emotional pain.  I've always liked pain and blood has always been relaxing to me.  Even today, though I've stopped cutting due to a promise, I would much rather give myself a cut than sit in bed thinking I'm going crazy and trying to supress myself from screaming... In the other sense, you also said you want to keep yourself in tact.  With the way I was, I hated myself more than anyone.  Even now, as I slowly get better, I don't exactly love myself, but I can tolerate myself.  But when you hate yourself, it's not like you mind hurting yourself... Regardless, for me, blood and pain also make me happy. But again, that's just me, and everyone has different reasons for cutting and different feelings that provoke cutting.  But the most important thing to remember is that people don't logically choose to do these things, and they come up in severe emotional states.  And what thoughts these states provoke are different from person to person. Just Waiting Here Posted at 12:18 pm on July 5, 2009 Dirty. All 4 previous replies displayed.