I've always been an A-, B+ student my whole life. I've also always been in Honors/Advanced classes. Frankly, up until this year, I rarely ever studied, and was able to get by with the grades above.

This year, I made a pact to myself that I would actually PAY ATTENTION in class for once, and study.

Sounds like a good idea, right?

I'm now failing all my classes, despite studying, and going into the test with a "I know this, I'm gonna ace this!" attitude. I have even begun to blank out.

Failing, as in, 50's.

My teachers can't help me. They don't know what to say. What are they going to say? Study More and try not to fail? I can't get a tutor in every class, either.

I don't know what's wrong or why this started happening.

IF I even pass this year, my hopes of going to a better than average college will all be down the toilet. My parents will be so disappointed, I am disappointed.

I'm a loser in general, so now that I have failed at what I'm supposed to do anyways, I'm a failure in general.

With this, I am getting more and more depressed. I've stopped caring what I look like, gained way, and have completely lost all social skills.

Like I said, up until now, I was failing at everything but school. Now, I am failing at school, the one thing I thought I might be able to do decently at.

I really hope I die, because I don't want to see the trainwreck of events that is soon to follow this.