I am kind of confused about my feelings now towards this one girl. I am a sophomore in high school and I asked a girl to the homecoming dance and I seemed to have fell in love with her afterwards as I talked to her more and got to know her. I have conveyed my feelings of love for her in the form of a poem (which is a bit on the light side) and a letter (in which I explained in detail how I felt). Last week was when I gave her the letter. At the end of the letter, I set up a date but I was rejected because she had a busy weekend. I also stated clearly that if she was annoyed and/or bothered by me, she should tell me upfront and that I will never bother her again. Her response to the letter was "I don't know." Because she didn't tell me not to see her, I ended up feeling really happy for the next few days. I was actually rejected by her a couple times before. At the dance, she said no when I asked her to a dance and she declined when I asked to have lunch with her off-campus. This is how I felt about her:
-When I see her, it makes me happy and I feel all good inside. One day, I was kind of down and seeing her cheered up.
-I always think about her and I find myself drifting off into thought more than usual.
-I feel like I can do anything for her, but I don't know what to do.
-When I now look at the girls that I used to think were really beautiful, I always think of how much more beautiful she is.
But this week a few things changed. I normally want to see her and talk to her, but I ended up making excuses to myself and never talked with her. I couldn't even get myself to look at her and I tried to avoid her for some reason. I still have the same feelings as mentioned.
I don't know but I think I'm afraid of something bad happening. At this point, I feel like I just want to let it all go, but at the same time, I also want to continue to love her and wait for her to develop feelings for me. When I talked to her, I got mixed signals. I also noticed that she looked towards my directions a few times this week (I noticed this from peripheral vision), as if expecting me to come over to talk to her as I normally would. But then again, she could've just been looking for some other reason. I remember my feelings for her being so much stronger a few weeks ago, but now I'm starting to think what I had before was just an obsession. Before, I would try to talk to her whenever it was possible and now I can only get myself to talk to her when she is not with her friends. There were many instances where I wanted to say "I love you" to her but I was afraid of her reaction. Should I just open up to her in person and based on her reaction decide whether to pursue her or not? I was considering this many times but I really didn't want to lose her. Maybe because of the rejections, I feel as though I am going to get a negative reaction to her if I say those three words and I'd rather have the ability to talk to her than not. So based on all of this, can you guys tell me what I should do?