But I've always had this weird sensation hanging in my mind that my mum is drugging me or something, you know like in sixth sense when the mother drugs the daughter? Don't ask me why I just do, like when I have my tea in the morning on the way to school in a flask and stuff.

I am always ill and increasingly so in recent months and I've been eating well and I don't know why I am ill all the time now.

Just now my mum gave me a drink. She was watching me as I took a sip, I asked her "what?" and she watched me again. I was joking with her saying "I'm just wondering what you've put in here" and she laughed with me. I actually thought she might have put some alcohol in there (she asked me if I wanted some before, I declined) as I got to the bottom of the glass I saw a light film of stuff on the bottom, I wiped the film with my finger to find it was dust stuff, like a dissolved substance that hasn't completely gone?

I'm paranoid I know but what other explinations could there be?!

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[[Flowers In The Window]]

I can't sit here and vow your mums innocence or that she's guilty, and I do admit you do sound knd of paranoid, it's best to go see a doctor first.

Try making your own teas and soups from now on, or preparing them yourself. The mind is a powerful thing, maybe you're just psyching yourself out, making yourself sick. You know?

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my lastfm ^^  

On another note I have paranoid delusions and sometimes I believe my mother is doing the same thing. I also think stupid shit like cameras in my bedroom and rapists hiding under my bed and the CIA is out to get me.


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