I'm trying SO damn hard to tell you that im struggling and you WON'T do anything about it. Just SIT THERE like it's a PHASE im going through.

How many times do you have to LOOK at the scars on my arm and discard them for what they are. Why do you ignore it? Why won't you help me? If you're so ASHAMED of me being DEPRESSED and SUICIDAL, and ME, then HELP fix it.

I ASKED you for help so many fucking times. You dont actually care at all.

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Post edited at 3:56 am on Nov. 1, 2009 by lannie

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Because only time is capable of understanding how great love is.

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actyually.. what did you need help with?
sorry i didn't read properly

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Parent(s)?

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As far as the rest goes...waiting for someone to pick you up and help you would be the ideal solution.......if only people were prone to doing that.  I kinda get where you're coming from in not wanting to say anything yourself, in just wanting someone to notice by their own accord.  I was always the same way.  It was kind of a "well if there isn't even a single person out there who notices, maybe help isn't worth it anyways" thing.  Like...you don't want to have to go through the steps of admitting that there's a problem.  idk

The thing is that you're just wasting time and life doing it.  You've buried yourself in this hole waiting for someone to help you...and it's obviously not getting you anywhere.  I think you've got to consider when the situation is dire enough to take things into your own hands and get help.  You don't want to live like this forever, I'm sure.  Isn't it kind of worth it to just bite the bullet and reach out?