And I think about my past.. like the mean things I have said to people.. the things I could have done..

I just want to be a lot more relaxed and I don't want to worry to much about anything.

Support please?

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If I don't like you, you can just fix it by
getting a personality and an attitude
Watch me..

Just kick back with a beer.

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I am LW's Hitler of grammar Nazis.
S Ξ G
Today's Livewire IQ: 33 (clinically severe mental retardation).
I'm an asshole. Get over it.

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Masturbate.

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If I don't like you, you can just fix it by
getting a personality and an attitude
Watch me..

And I wish I'd said things differently ALL the time, even when it's not a serious issue.

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Tell me I'm the anchor of my own Ascension
Tell me I'm a tourist in the Fourth Dimension

Last.fm

To answer your question: drink.

Its just something you have to live with.

OP, I do the same thing, probably worse then you do. You just have to distract yourself. Tell yourself to quit it and do an activity that wont allow deep thinking. That's about all you can do.

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Like a runaway

It will be an injustice if I answer you in a few lines. But, I am sorry for the time being, today I won't be able to do it. At the same time I cant just leave this question behind me and sign off. Let me try to write some thoughts.

First of all this is a common problem. Happens to almost everyone. And many people have thought about it. Solution do exist. But you need to put some effort.

One thing you should be remembering is that the "trigger" is most important. I mean the moment the first thought of something come to our mind, you need to be alert. If you yield to this first thought it just goes on. You can't just stop. It will just take you away. If you can stop at that point. Then you are almost done. The thought won't even touch you. The moment the thought start creeping, just take your mind away. Here there is one problem. Though you are a single entity, our mind have two kinds of existence. One is which knows what is right which want to be good, calm quite, peaceful etc. The other just want to fly away, may even like to just lament, and wont even try to let us out of it. That's why we easily yields to depression. Though we know there is no point in crying, our mind may find some sort of comfort in it and just buries us there.

I strongly believe that you can be peaceful and relaxed. The whole sorts of cloud that just covers your mind, you have to just drive them away. Remember you won't be able to do once you are in. Only in the beginning you are there. Your full control is there. Catch you mind at that time. Everything will okay after.

I knew that I have not  explained you properly. At least if you understand a bit just practice. Your life become blissful.

All the best.