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I've read topics here about cutting. I know people in real life who do it too. Cutting, burning, and other stuff. I have to admit that I don't understand this. At all. My life is not perfect. I'm short, overweight, not really attractive to most girls, have parents who think I'm either drug addicted, crazy, or gay. I don't get high, drunk, steal, or bully others. I get angry and depressed way too much. I break things and scream at people when my anxiety takes over. I hate my life and everybody in it sometimes. Even though this is true I can honestly say that I have never once thought about harming or killing myself. I mean not ever. There are things I want to do and I think to myself that everybody around me is wrong and they just can't see what I'm about. They are the ones who have the problem. I like myself and how I think. Why would I want to harm the person that understands me the best? Me! I may not be perfect but I'm the only me there is and I want to keep myself intact. I guess it would be hard for anybody to explain why they hurt themselves. People have told me that it's a way to dull the emotional pain by focusing on physical pain instead. I don't get that. My emotional pain and anger make me feel very alive. I don't want to dull them. I guess what I'm trying to say is, please take care of yourself because you're the only one who can do it. Now you can call me lame or whatever you want but I said what I was thinking.
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It's hard to understand if you don't experience it. But let's say this... you say you break things and scream at people? I've never broken anything and I think only twice in my life have I ever raised my voice when pushed too far (and that is only a 3 second thing). That's not my way of coping... you have your own. You also have to consider that those that do cut often feel compelled to do so. These people aren't logically considering what they 'should' do or how they 'should' respond. Of course, everything is different. I cut because it took away the emotional pain. I've always liked pain and blood has always been relaxing to me. Even today, though I've stopped cutting due to a promise, I would much rather give myself a cut than sit in bed thinking I'm going crazy and trying to supress myself from screaming... In the other sense, you also said you want to keep yourself in tact. With the way I was, I hated myself more than anyone. Even now, as I slowly get better, I don't exactly love myself, but I can tolerate myself. But when you hate yourself, it's not like you mind hurting yourself... Regardless, for me, blood and pain also make me happy. But again, that's just me, and everyone has different reasons for cutting and different feelings that provoke cutting. But the most important thing to remember is that people don't logically choose to do these things, and they come up in severe emotional states. And what thoughts these states provoke are different from person to person.
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