It really upsets me, because whilst they're complaining about how their mum won't buy them a new Blackberry, I have REAL problems that they downright refuse to listen to. They literally ignore me. When I try talking to them about my problems, they change the fucking subject. They don't even bother to change it to something relevant, it'll be like: "Hey, can I talk to you please?" "Sure." "*Begins explaining*" "I drew a picture today! Wanna see?"

I have NO ONE to confide in anymore and it's eating me alive.  

I even have one friend who feels the need to attention seek to SUCH an extent, that she'll take things I've confided in her, and say they're happening to her: for instance, at one point when we were close, I tried hinting to her about my problems with my dad being an abusive alcoholic. The next day, "I hate my dad, what a douchebag, I wish he would stop drinking and hitting me". Her dad is the nicest guy ever. I know for a fucking fact that he wouldn't lay a finger on her. She's one of those "I'm daddy's princess" kids.

I can't STAND being around these stupid fuckers anymore, who fucking LIE about this shit when it's actually happening to me for real. Fucking hypocrites. When it's "happening" to them, they expect me to listen and care and give advice. But when I've just been beaten to a fucking bloody pulp again, and I'm asking if I can talk to them about something, it's a straight off "no".

Ontop of that, I just feel completely useless. In comparison to my siblings, especially. I have near enough no talents, no aspirations, no rolemodels, and my personality is made of genuine fail. I feel like a fucking RETARD most of the time, because I just can't do anything fucking right. No one wants me, my parents hate me, I don't get any fucking respect.

I really don't want to be here anymore.  

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Talents don't mean much, you'vbre gopt to have a goal in life.

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I can't have goals without talents.

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you can have goals without talent you wake up every morning with a talent we all have its called life so you down well then write it all down and make a book of it and put it out there for all those kids who think no one understands me put your own life experience in it and show them yes I understand and I know what you have been through and this is how you get through all that.  
Dont give up writting is easy you did all that at the top of the page well keep going put in in a journal and make a book of it so that others will know your story even if you decide to end it all due to human stupidity.

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Thanks for the advice, but I really don't want anyone finding out about the things that happened to me. That, and I can't write, and my life is no where near interesting enough to be published.
Thanks anyway.

you need better friends... friends that will listen to you. sometimes it does help to start a journal and write down what happened that day... or any day.. just get the stuff off your chest. it helps me to do that.

if you believe you have no talents, aspirations, role models, and you believe that your personality is made of genuine fail, then that's the way things are going to be. believe in yourself and you can do amazing things with that... if you don't believe in yourself... well, then you're going to be stuck in a rut thinking you won't go anywhere and you're just a big blob of fail.

things will get better, i promise you. be strong. you can always PM me if you need anything.  

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