I'm sorry you're having such a hard time! Why don't you go see your family? I mean, surely, you have a family! You should call up your best friend, and make a coffee date with her, or something. Just rekindle that friendship
that is dying out. (: Good luck!
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if she wants to dance and drink all night,
well there's no one that can stop her,
she's going until the house lights come up,
or her stomach spills onto the floor.