i'm at a point in my life where i need to make alot of decisions, and soon.  I really don't know how to begin explaining anything...

this last year, my mom left my step dad for a new boyfriend, the guy was great for a long time.....they got into fights a couple times, and i have had nights where i've stayed awake ready to grab the gun from beside my tv, because for a good amount of time, i did not trust the man.  within the last month my mom has put a good amount of the only money she had left (about 40 grand) toward the finance of a bar. which is where we currently live.  Last night, things went to hell.  and needless to say, unless things change, its looking like that 40 grand has basically been stolen from us, and were going to end up looking for a new place to live.

the man had said he is going to be getting rid of ALL pets we own.  this includes 2 dogs, a cat and 3 birds. as i sit here now, i no longer have my dog that i have had for the last ten years of my life.  To say i hate the man for what he has done is an understatement.

on top of these issues i have the fact that i have not passed a single school course this whole year, and am seriously considering dropping out.

i'm just not sure of what to do anymore, as each day goes by i want to be here less and less, and the only thing stopping me from moving to my dads (which i would have done beginning of this school year if the house wouldn't have burnt down) is the fact that if i do go there, i will not even be able to receive my GED, or be able to finance any sort of further education past that.

idk anymore....

You mum might just think nothing is wrong as long as she is happy but maybe she needs someone with an outside look on her relationship to talk to her about things. I know it's not the easiest things telling your parents maybe they aren't doing what is best for them however it needs to be done.

About education is there anyway you can re-do the year or maybe try a different course where you feel passionate about what you are doing as this will make you work a lot harder to get to where you want to be.

It's a shame you can't go live with your dad because of not being able to get GED if you don't however maybe in the long run it could be better for you as you sound like you don't enjoy living with your mum. You have to think about things and talk to your mum. Good luck as it might be difficult but once you have said what needs to be said you will feel so much better.

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First off, have you talked with your mother about your dislike for her choices of boyfriends? Often people are so blinded by the people that they care about that they don't see their faults. If your mother is in love with this person, perhaps she needs you to help give her a wake up call. Especially if he is being a tyrant to the point of selling your family pets. It shouldn't be up to him.

Has his presence ever made you feel so helpless that you considered harming yourself? If it has you definitely need to find a way out immediately. If you told your mom this, she would see how serious the matter is. I'm sure that he is driving you into depression. I would definitely reccoment counseling; if counseling doesn't work you should medicate yourself.

Have you tried talking with the boyfriend about it? Explain to him that you are uncomfortable with his strict rules because he is not your real father. Be respectful since he is your elder; but he may not realize how much he is hurting you. If he reciprocates in a violent way - you need to get out immediately. That showcases that his temper is potentially dangerous. Also, tell your mother if this occurs.

You mentioned that you can't move in with your father because then you couldn't receive your GED. You are forgetting that it is not to late to re-enroll in school. You really have to choose your battles. If you would rather put up with a tyrant of a (potential) step-dad then go back to school it obviously isn't as serious as you are making it sound. Call your father and let him know what's going on. At least talk with him about this.

You mentioned that you dropped out which obviously means you are over the age of fifteen. In this case, you only have a little while left to go as it is. If you want to move out as soon as you can you need to first make yourself financially stable.

Some ways to prepare yourself: