don't judge me, we all make mistakes, I have never cheated before and I love this man to death. last march i was going through some really bad situation and my boyfriend specifically told me he had no time for me because of NY Academy. I got into trouble and didn't go to him, instead I found security with a guy who was in love with me, things got physical. I came clean to my boyfriend of five years, lots of pain, lots of crying, anger and apologies later, we are still not on good terms, he loves me but he is very hurt and I ve been doing nothing but regretting everything.he watched a show about cheating couple days earlier and want talked to me since =(. he is vey hot and cold and i understand that.
So the guy I cheated with knows how much I'm hurting and how I regret ever getting closer than friends with him, he is worried about me and wishes nothing ever happened, because he doesn't want to see me hurt. He said he want to write to him, apologizing and explaining his faults. I'm not sure if its a good idea or not....help please.