I find it hard to live with my anxiety. I find it hard to breathe.
So...there's this guy I like. Joe, let's call him. So Joe and I hang out a lot as friend.
I have feelings for him, but I am not in a place where I am ready to tell him and I don't think it's a good idea for me to be in a relationship right now. My anxiety has been really awful and I think it would just be bad. SO I'm trying to just view him as a friend and focus on me.
Trouble is, I'm insanely jealous. I KNOW he's not my boyfriend. I know he doesn't know about my feelings and I cannot control him.
I am terrified NOT to tell him and I'm afraid he will find somebody else.
But I am terrified to tell him because I really am not in a good place, mentally, and I couldn't handle it if he turned me down.
How can I get rid of jealousy? I know it's irrational but that doesn't help my heart stop hurting.