I ditched, so that my teachers would count it as a "sick day" so I could take an extra day to study, and "stay hom sick" from the AP History Test, the AP Physics midterm, a freaking philosophical analysis paper, a 40-point Japanese quiz, and a late AP History Quiz that I had to make up - but wasn't ready for. I wasn't prepared for any of these due to stress, and grades literally close for this school quad-mester in a few days.
It was either "be sick" and make up tests later, or show up and get a D+ on everything. So - I deleted the school's message as soon as I "got home from school" before my mom got back from work. Unfortunately, they contacted her again - and she beat me. I explained the whole thing to her, and she screamed at me "LIAR!" like a raging out of control bitch. I already told her the truth about the stress, and the tests, but she must've wanted a different answer otherwise she wouldn't be satisfied.
All I could do is scream at her "What do you want me to say?!" as she was hitting me. Tomorrow - she's calling the school office, and reporting her daughter. As soon as my nasty bitch of a raging whore mother does, the school admin is going to report this to all of my teachers that let me take the quizzes/ tests/ due dates a day later because I was "sick". I'm going to lose my A- on my AP Physics midterm because of my disgusting whore of a mother. I'm going to lose my 89% of my AP History quiz, and my Philosophy project's grade is going to get wiped to a zero because I was dishonest. I've worked too hard for that whore to tear me down, and I can't even concentrate as I type this.
I'm still crying, and she's going to possibly ruin a good portion of my future. My GPA is going to get torn down after my desperate hard work to finish this grading quarter of my sophomore year cleanly, after my teachers who won't trust me anymore deduct the score I didn't rightfully deserve because I wasn't actually sick.
All I can think of now is how I won't get into my dream college because of that disgusting attention-seeking slut. I know lieing is terrible, but if she just told that that I really was "sick", I could keep my reputation with my teachers as a good student at a status quo.
I'm going to lose my hard-earned grades literally 36 hours before the grading quarter closes.
I'm going to lose my teachers trust, and respect.
And my mother is probably going to beat me again as soon as I walk downstairs, because she is a disgusting, raging, attention-seeking whore.
I'm literally still crying at the moment - and I can still hear my mother screaming from downstairs. She's going to report to the school tomorrow morning, I don't know what to do.
First of all I'm so sorry to hear that you are feeling so flooded, you've taken on an extreme workload (as you well know), and you are only human...of course you're feeling the pressure. Kids only doing basic classes are flipping out with the tension, let alone someone so bright and promising as yourself.
You've had a bit of time since the eHelp was submitted, so you may have calmed down a little. It's scary as hell knowing your whole future could be influenced this easily, but without calming down and being mature about this you won't get anywhere. If you keep a level head, and don't over-react too much to your mum (as hard as that may be), people will most-likely stop and think, hey...this person really wants this but is just struggling a little bit. Parents are horrible at times, especially when it comes to their kid's eduction. What I don't understand is why she wants to tell the school about it when all it can do is create more problems. There's always a chance once your mum settles down too she might realise that you are struggling, and she may change her mind...things said in the heat of the moment aren't always what we intend.
But if she doesn't, you need to explain it to the school, asap. If she does tell the admin, I don't know about your school but they just tend to be passers-on...and probably have no say in the matter. What I would do though is go and tell your teachers everything, preferably before your mum can get to tell them, but afterwards if you have to. Explain to them what you told us, that you're struggling immensely with this huge workload, and that you mentally couldn't take that one day. I think if you were at breaking point there is no use in going to school only to have a break-down. I wouldn't mention that you stayed home to study, they might think you were trying to cram more before the exams (even if you were, best for them not to know this bit), rather that you stayed home to get into the right frame of mind and get mentally ready.
I think in future though, you're going to have to remember this and not take on more than you can handle at once. You are only human, and whatever happens, happens for a reason. As for your mum beating you, this is not on. If you're old enough to be doing these tough exams you're obviously old enough to be able to be at home without being beaten. If it happens again, or if it's happened a lot in the past I think you should bring this up with your teachers too. Your mother is being very unreasonable, and if other people know just how much she took this out of line they will probably see how much she over-reacts to things...therefore giving you a bit of slack.
I do wish you the very best of luck...you are obviously very smart and I hope everything works out okay for you. Please, don't hesitate to join up and send me a message here in LiveWire, I'm more than happy to listen and to hear about what the outcome was. Good luck hun,
-Jsia
If you have a personal tutor or someone that's probably the best person to start with (if not a subject tutor that you get on well with or anyone you feel comfortable talking too in the school). Just tell them what you've been going through & tell them that you needed the day off because you couldn't cope, you were trying to deal with it, but now you understand that you should've come to them sooner & you don't want it to ruin all the hard work you've put in.
It could go either way, hopefully they'll understand what you've been going through, discuss it with your teachers & you'll be able to work something out between your grades & the kind of student you've been up until that point (presuming that that's a good one). Although it could backfire & they may have to take action because of your 'sick' day but if your mother phones them anyway then that will happen. The school is more likely to look on you favorably if you admit your mistake straight off yourself & explain rather than just that you got found out.
I hope this helps. School & exams are a really stressful time, but the best thing to do is ask for help so it doesn't get on top of you.
Jess
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